John 21:1-19
1 After [he appeared to his followers in Jerusalem,] Jesus showed himself again to the disciples
by the Sea of Tiberias, and he showed himself in this way.
2 Gathered there together were Simon Peter, Thomas called the Twin, Nathanael of Cana in Galilee,
the sons of Zebedee, and two others of his disciples. 3 Simon Peter said to them, “I am going fishing.”
They said to him, “We will go with you.” They went out and got into the boat,
but that night they caught nothing.
4 Just after daybreak, Jesus stood on the beach, but the disciples did not know that it was Jesus.
5 Jesus said to them, “Children, you have no fish, have you?” They answered him, “No.”
6 He said to them, “Cast the net to the right side of the boat, and you will find some.”
So they cast it, and now they were not able to haul it in because there were so many fish.
7 That disciple whom Jesus loved said to Peter, “It is the Lord!” When Simon Peter heard
that it was the Lord, he put on his outer garment, for he had taken it off, and jumped into the sea.
8 But the other disciples came in the boat, dragging the net full of fish,
for they were not far from the land, only about a hundred yards off.
9 When they had gone ashore, they saw a charcoal fire there, with fish on it, and bread.
10 Jesus said to them, “Bring some of the fish that you have just caught.”
11 So Simon Peter went aboard and hauled the net ashore, full of large fish,
a hundred fifty-three of them, and though there were so many, the net was not torn.
12 Jesus said to them, “Come and have breakfast.” Now none of the disciples dared to ask him,
“Who are you?” because they knew it was the Lord. 13 Jesus came and took the bread
and gave it to them and did the same with the fish. 14 This was now the third time that Jesus
appeared to the disciples after he was raised from the dead.
15 When they had finished breakfast, Jesus said to Simon Peter, “Simon son of John,
do you love me more than these?” He said to him, “Yes, Lord; you know that I love you.”
Jesus said to him, “Feed my lambs.” 16 A second time he said to him, “Simon son of John,
do you love me?” He said to him, “Yes, Lord; you know that I love you.”
Jesus said to him, “Tend my sheep.” 17 He said to him the third time,
“Simon son of John, do you love me?” Peter felt hurt because he said to him the third time,
“Do you love me?” And he said to him, “Lord, you know everything; you know that I love you.”
Jesus said to him, “Feed my sheep. 18 Very truly, I tell you, when you were younger,
you used to fasten your own belt and to go wherever you wished. But when you grow old,
you will stretch out your hands, and someone else will fasten a belt around you
and take you where you do not wish to go.” 19 (He said this to indicate the kind of death
by which he would glorify God.) After this he said to him, “Follow me.”
Reflection
“You are not also one of this man’s disciples, are you?” (John 18:17).
The question echoes around the charcoal fire. All gathered at the fire, warming themselves, turned and looked at Peter. They stared at the man who arrived at the same time Jesus arrived to be questioned. They stared at the man who had cut off the ear of one of their relatives. They stared at Peter, naming him as a disciple, and Peter looked them square in the eye and stated: “I am not” (John 18:17). Three times he denied being a disciple.
You might be forgiven for thinking that Peter actually denied “knowing” Jesus three times. That is the way that things went down in the other gospels, but, in the gospel of John, Peter does not require forgiveness from Jesus for not believing in him, rather he requires forgiveness from himself for refusing to be seen as a disciple; for not seeking to be who God created him to be. In the charcoal fire scene, Peter refuses to be a disciple. And, I think that a lot of us can relate.
I was once pulled aside by someone at a community event who shamefully confessed
to me that they did not do the things that disciples usually do. They did not go to worship. They did not pray as others pray. They did not talk about Jesus at all. What they did go out and do is take a hike into the woods and enjoy nature. “That is how I worship the Lord,” they said.
Do not get me wrong, I too love heading into the forests of God’s creation and I too find great joy in seeing the flowers, waterfalls, and gorgeous views that God has made. I want to be clear that there is nothing wrong with doing that. It is a type of meditation that is good for the soul.
But, please do not confuse that meditative practice with following Jesus. No one is being touched with love as you meditate in the woods. No one will crucify you, as they did Jesus, for taking a nice walk in the woods.
However, they may crucify you for protecting people in an illegal homeless encampment out in the woods. The later looks a little more like discipleship than the former. Risking your life for the sake of people who have nothing, and have nowhere to go, looks a lot more like Jesus’ love on the cross than a simple stroll in the woods.
Loving others actually looks like something. Discipleship is cross shaped. Discipleship can look like putting your life on the line the same way that Jesus did for you on the cross.
Given that, it is easy to deny our discipleship. Golf rather than worship; sentiments of spirituality rather than fighting for the lowly; not disrupting the family gathering rather than sharing your faith with those you love; and labeling the poor as lazy rather than offering some bread to eat; all of these are examples in one way or another of staring people in the eye as you stand around the charcoal fire and stating “I am not one of his disciples.”
But, today’s scripture reading is not about those three denials of Peter. Nor, is it about our failure to follow Jesus. Today is about something much better. Today is about the abundance that Jesus gives us even while we are in the middle of our denial.
Today is about Jesus showing up, when it seems we have given up on following him and gone back to our old ways of life. After Jesus’ death, Peter said, “I am going fishing.” And the other disciples said, “We will go with you.” The disciples had given up on following the ways of Jesus. But, today is not about that. Today is about how Jesus did not give up on them. Today is about how Jesus filled their nets with fish anyway as we heard in John 21:6. Today is about how Jesus comes to us and fills our net out of love anyway; even when we have given up on following him. Today is about the abundance of grace God gives those disciples who may not have figured out how to follow Jesus the first or second or ninth times around. I have been trying to follow Jesus well for about the thousandth time now. I too fail regularly, but it does not matter because today is not about keeping track of our failures. Today is about the new opportunity that God is providing you this very day to follow Jesus, just as Peter was given a new opportunity to follow him.
After the three refusals to be a disciple of Jesus Christ, Peter is given three opportunities to recommit to following Jesus.
“Jesus said to Simon Peter, ‘Simon son of John, do you love me more than these?’ He said to him, ‘Yes, Lord; you know that I love you.’ Jesus said to him, ‘Feed my lambs.’ A second time he said to him, ‘Simon son of John, do you love me?’ He said to him, ‘Yes, Lord; you know that I love you.’ Jesus said to him, ‘Tend my sheep.’ He said to him the third time, ‘Simon son of John, do you love me?’ Peter felt hurt because he said to him the third time, ‘Do you love me?’ And he said to him, ‘Lord, you know everything; you know that I love you.’ Jesus said to him, ‘Feed my sheep’” (John 21:15-17).
Three times Peter is given the chance to declare his love of Jesus, and three times Peter is encouraged to be who God created him to be. “Feed my lambs,” Jesus encourages (John 21:15). “Tend my sheep” (John 21:16). “Feed my sheep” (John 21:17).
I have often been asked, “Why don’t people follow Jesus these days?” I do not think that the answer is all that complicated actually. It seems that many people simply do not know how to follow Jesus, or were never told about the love of Jesus and his ways. In the past, the church has been very good about telling people that they need to believe. “Believe in the name of the Lord Jesus Christ and you will be saved.” But, the church has not necessarily been as good about telling people what trusting in the Lord actually looks like.
It looks like feeding tender lambs. It looks like caring for the lowly and giving holy attention to little ones.
It also looks a lot like tending the sheep. It looks a lot like guiding others in the ways of Jesus Christ.
It also looks a lot like feeding sheep. It looks a lot like offering an abundant meal of fish and an abundant meal of trust in the Lord Jesus Christ. In other words, it looks a lot like having a relationship with Jesus and having a relationship with those whom Jesus loves.
The twelve year old girl seemingly had no one. When I saw her, she was in the children’s behavioral science unit in the hospital. She was officially there for suicidal behavior and for cutting, but as she talked in the therapy group that I led at the time, the real reason she was there was because her parents had forgotten her.
The girl actually came from a very wealthy family, just up the hill where all of the big houses were, and that was part of the problem. The parents had all the money in the world to travel to exotic destinations together, and they did…a lot. The twelve year old was left home alone…a lot. She was literally alone, with no one to watch her or love her much of the time.
Even that day, as she spoke to the others in the group, her parents were using her hospitalization as an opportunity to take a trip to Spain. They called the hospital periodically to get an update on her progress, but that was it.
She needed someone, anyone, to be there for her. That group setting was the first time that I saw her, but it was not the last.
The next time that I saw her, she was at the mall. Remember malls, those big places that people used to go to together to shop and have fun together? Yeah, I saw her in one of those once thriving malls. I saw her through the crowd in the food court. She was smiling as she talked with someone. Shopping bags were at her feet and a laugh was coming from her lips. The bandages were no longer on her wrists.
I walked up and waved a hello. She smiled at me and introduced me to her “big sister.” I remind you that the girl was an only child, so this was not her biological sister. Actually, this was her sister through the Big Brothers and Big Sisters program.
Amazingly, I also recognized her Big Sister. That teen (a senior in High School actually) was a follower of Jesus Christ, and she loved children. She loved helping with the Sunday School and the church youth group, and here she was, out feeding one of her lambs. She had taken the girl to church earlier in the day (allowing her to help teach Sunday School), and now they were celebrating by eating at the mall. It was not a net full of fish, but it was a grace-filled feeding none-the-less for a girl who was once lost and alone but now had been found. And, it was all because her Big Sister decided she wanted to be, not just a believer, but a disciple.
What I love about Peter’s story is that Jesus refuses to give up on the man. Jesus continues to abundantly provide for the guy, even though he denied being a follower. Jesus continues to work on the guy, showing him the empty tomb and his wounds. Then Jesus encourages one last time to love and serve. “Feed my lambs.” “Tend my sheep.” “Feed my sheep.” And, Peter does.
It gives me hope that the 1001st time around, I might get right this thing that we call following Jesus. What a beautiful thing it is to be a follower of Christ. What a beautiful thing it is to live in love.